^^ ..threatening to be recycled?!?!

As I was browsing on my e-mailbox the other day… I, by chance, bumped onto the letter (on my most recent post) I composed almost a year ago..call it a twist of fate or concurrence but the night after I have posted this to my blog (entitled $$ an expired break-up letter...holla!! ---- Well it isn’t my intention to fabricate a clash or whatever negative it may entail but ‘twas just one of my killing-the-boredom ways), this man and I had a not-so-fine argument about a very sensitive matter.. And, as the emotional person that I am, I’ve instinctively thought of the so many downbeat issues about our relationship that I wasn’t able to control myself from spilling it out that very moment. I just couldn’t help it. I felt very vulnerable…very weak… in evenhandedness to him, he said his sorry for quite a few times..but SORRY is not just what I wanted from him. And he knew that..but what makes me feel even more miserable is the fact that he can’t even think/do the slightest thing to make things right. Up to this time, I am still contemplating on this: How to cure one self’s emotional imbalance? Despair and frustration far exceeds joy and contentment. Can Letting Go and Acceptance really fill in what Hope has failed to unravel?